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#alpacablues

by Kevin Mathews

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1.
I guess I should be thankful, instead of being ungrateful I confess I am a miserable fart, yeah I’m a work of art I’m waiting for the bomb to get things done Ignoring the pain, trying to live again. I’ve been told to counting my blessings, to endure the testing By idiots with their limousines and caviar, living like rock stars I’m cutting off my nose to spite my face Losing control, trying to save my soul I’ve had it with your platitudes, your positive attitudes Why don’t you just FUCK OFF and let it be, nothing here to see I’m stretching out my hand to touch the sky Don’t need you liars to say, tomorrow’s gonna be a better day
2.
The closer I get/The more I forget How dangerous you are You’re crushing my heart/Can’t get it to start How did this get so far? I tried to run away/but my feet are made of clay The older I am/The harder it is to pretend That I can be the better man You brighten my days/Leave me in a haze That I can barely understand I tried to hold you near/Then you disappeared... I WON’T LET GO/I CAN’T GIVE IN COS I WANT WHAT I CAN’T HAVE 20,000 light years can’t change the way I feel For this treasure, I will beg borrow and steal
3.
Don't you understand what pain you've caused? Can't you see that I've tried my best I failed your test Still you nail me to this cross of depression Maybe I'm better off dead So if you love me why do you hurt me so? I never asked for this responsibility Overcome by liability Torn limb from limb on this rack of guilt Maybe I'm better off dead Cry cry the tears come so easily The taunts like honey from your tongue Don't wanna feel/Don't wanna deal With a life of empty promises Maybe I'm better off dead
4.
Wounded 03:25
Your poison is running through my veins How do I ignore these toxic feelings? Your cold shoulder has ruined me for life How do I wash away the pain and the fear? FLOAT DOWNSTREAM ON A FUNERAL PYRE BURY MY LOVE IN THE FLAMES FLY AWAY ON THE ASHES OF A DREAM BLEEDING. WEEPING These delusions have all dulled my senses Losing my mind with every second thought Burning my heart out staring at your face Picking at the gaping wound you blessed me with No way out as far as I can see Breaking my bones on your vicious lies Writing's on the wall and the end is near Guess I never saw this coming...

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six months after the release of his previous album emo fascism kevin mathews comes up with a new 4-track ep: #alpacablues

unconventional perhaps but for mathews the decision to release new material obeys an artistic impulse rather than a commercial one

conceptually #alpacablues is the sound of a heart breaking under the weight of circumstances but inherent within such trauma is the promise of renewal

mathews is joined on #alpacablues by collaborators ray aziz (percussion), nelson tan (upright bass), eileen chai (violin) and randolf arriola (electric guitars on “wounded”).

#alpacablues was recorded & mixed by patrick chng at thom’s loft.

track-listing: if i wasn’t paranoid, I’d be dead | i want what i can’t have | better off dead | wounded

more info: www.facebook.com/kevinmmathews11
Queries to kamcomusic@gmail.com

cover art by andy yang. andyyangsookit.wordpress.com

special thanks to alan & fiffy. And of course, yq.

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released February 15, 2014

Composed, arranged & produced by Kevin Mathews
Recorded & mixed at Thom's Loft by Patrick Chng

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Kevin Mathews Singapore

KAMCO Music is the home of Singaporean singer-songwriter, composer, musician Kevin Mathews.

Mathews has released EPs/albums with watchmen, The Crowd, Popland & as a solo artist.

He also records as KayMac and Rondo Vitale!
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