#alpacablues

by Kevin Mathews

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six months after the release of his previous album emo fascism kevin mathews comes up with a new 4-track ep: #alpacablues

unconventional perhaps but for mathews the decision to release new material obeys an artistic impulse rather than a commercial one

conceptually #alpacablues is the sound of a heart breaking under the weight of circumstances but inherent within such trauma is the promise of renewal

mathews is joined on #alpacablues by collaborators ray aziz (percussion), nelson tan (upright bass), eileen chai (violin) and randolf arriola (electric guitars on “wounded”).

#alpacablues was recorded & mixed by patrick chng at thom’s loft.

track-listing: if i wasn’t paranoid, I’d be dead | i want what i can’t have | better off dead | wounded

more info: www.facebook.com/kevinmmathews11
Queries to kamcomusic@gmail.com

cover art by andy yang. andyyangsookit.wordpress.com

special thanks to alan & fiffy. And of course, yq.

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released February 15, 2014

Composed, arranged & produced by Kevin Mathews
Recorded & mixed at Thom's Loft by Patrick Chng

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Kevin Mathews Singapore

Kevin Mathews is a Singaporean singer-songwriter, best known for his #1 hit song, “My One and Only” with Watchmen in 1993.

Mathews has released EPs/albums with watchmen, The Crowd, Popland & as a solo artist. His latest incarnation is KayMac.
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Track Name: If I Wasn't Paranoid, I'd Be Dead
I guess I should be thankful, instead of being ungrateful
I confess I am a miserable fart, yeah I’m a work of art
I’m waiting for the bomb to get things done
Ignoring the pain, trying to live again.

I’ve been told to counting my blessings, to endure the testing
By idiots with their limousines and caviar, living like rock stars
I’m cutting off my nose to spite my face
Losing control, trying to save my soul

I’ve had it with your platitudes, your positive attitudes
Why don’t you just FUCK OFF and let it be, nothing here to see
I’m stretching out my hand to touch the sky
Don’t need you liars to say, tomorrow’s gonna be a better day
Track Name: I Want What I Can't Have
The closer I get/The more I forget
How dangerous you are
You’re crushing my heart/Can’t get it to start
How did this get so far?
I tried to run away/but my feet are made of clay

The older I am/The harder it is to pretend
That I can be the better man
You brighten my days/Leave me in a haze
That I can barely understand
I tried to hold you near/Then you disappeared...

I WON’T LET GO/I CAN’T GIVE IN
COS I WANT WHAT I CAN’T HAVE

20,000 light years can’t change the way I feel
For this treasure, I will beg borrow and steal
Track Name: Better Off Dead
Don't you understand what pain you've caused?
Can't you see that I've tried my best
I failed your test
Still you nail me to this cross of depression

Maybe I'm better off dead

So if you love me why do you hurt me so?
I never asked for this responsibility
Overcome by liability
Torn limb from limb on this rack of guilt

Maybe I'm better off dead

Cry cry the tears come so easily
The taunts like honey from your tongue
Don't wanna feel/Don't wanna deal
With a life of empty promises

Maybe I'm better off dead
Track Name: Wounded
Your poison is running through my veins
How do I ignore these toxic feelings?
Your cold shoulder has ruined me for life
How do I wash away the pain and the fear?

FLOAT DOWNSTREAM ON A FUNERAL PYRE
BURY MY LOVE IN THE FLAMES
FLY AWAY ON THE ASHES OF A DREAM
BLEEDING. WEEPING

These delusions have all dulled my senses
Losing my mind with every second thought
Burning my heart out staring at your face
Picking at the gaping wound you blessed me with

No way out as far as I can see
Breaking my bones on your vicious lies
Writing's on the wall and the end is near
Guess I never saw this coming...